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Friday, January 12, 2007
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+ don't judge me. 3:03 AM + + don't judge me. 11:28 PM + + don't judge me. 11:59 AM + + don't judge me. 10:33 PM + + don't judge me. 10:42 PM + + don't judge me. 11:30 PM + + don't judge me. 7:55 PM +
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Friday, November 10, 2006
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Physics is easier but chemistry was lyk hell..
After paper went to Bata with Tania Jessie Vanessa Sam and Sherie..
Sam needs to buy shoe for werk..
Then halfway thru...
Jessie and Tania left..
They both had something on..
I feel so lost without them..
I was wit Sam and Sherie..
Ate half of da cheesefries..
Had no appetite...
Then went back to school...
Then went for practical exam..
After practical..
Jessie was already at the reception waiting fo me..
So surprised and touching at da same tym..
Then went to coffee express to drink for a while..
Then it rained like cats and dogs..
We had no choice but to get wet..
Then we took a bus home to ma house area..
Then Jessie took a bus home..
Gawd..
We are all under lots of problems..
WE are all gonna suffer from depression soon...
What wa we gonna do????
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
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Woke up late..
Didnt study..
Met Rachel at city hall mrt..
Then took paper..
Lucky i didnt study but i managed to do...
Rushed off to werk..
Reached werk at 1.20pm..
Started to do work immediately..
Rained when i was about to finish werk..
Its a miracle... he smsed me all a sudden..
Tout it was sometin swit or wat..
But infact he was like ordering me to do tings...
Gawd..
Wen am i gonna give up on him????...
Finished werk at 5.40pm..
Went to smoke at da mrt wit ma colleague and then took train to Tampines..
Meeting Tania and Jessie..
I was lyk a bloody fool waiting for these 2 piglets..
Thank god while waiting fo em, someone was accompanying me on da phone..
In da end..
Its only Jessie..
Went to eat Long John..
This Jessie keep staring at ma cleavage..
She horny already..
Tania dont want to meet me...
So sad..
Dont love me animore already..
Sobs..
Wats happening God??!!!!!
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Wednesday, November 08, 2006
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But ma womb gave me problems..
Couldnt even stand up..
So weak..
Went to da doctor and get both medicine and mc..
And i didnt go out da whole day..
Spend da whole day talking on da phone wit someone...
Lyfs such a bitch..
Its raining and damn boring..
Couldnt find Tania at all..
So down..
None of my bezfrens r around...
Jessie at ****'s house..
Damn...
Im so lonely...
Tania wer r u?
Dun wan me animore?
:(
Sobs...
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Monday, November 06, 2006
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Paper 2..
Damn..
Firstly i didnt manage to finish all da questions..
Secondly i lost all ma memory..
I didnt noe how to do so many questions..
Suddenly i was lyk so damn stupid..
I actually had confidence tat it was gonna be easy cz so far..
Ma maths was rather good..
But then halfway thru doing da paper,
Sumting crossed ma mind and suddenly i lyk turn to be stupid..
God..
After paper went down to smoke..
Then left for lunch..
Ate at coffee express with Jessie..
We talked a lot and i realised...
That i am capable of givin ppl advices but da problem is..
I dont heed da advices tat i give..
Coz ma heart's so weak and im already fallen deep.
I do wonder y he reacted dis way..
I expected him to act maturedly..
Y muz he act dis way?..
I do miss him a lot..
Tried ways and means fo things to go back lyk it used too..
I guessed i was just one of dos gurls..
Didnt stand a chance to let him love me..
i was harsh to him but he deserved tat..
I miss dos tyms..
i'd rather tat tings go back to how it was before i went out..
i loved it and enjoyed it..
Still rememba those days..
First date..
Firewerks..
HHmmm..
Forget it..
Wats past is past..
No point ponderin over it..
But i jz cant help it..
I seriously like him..
Despite wat he did to me..
And wat he led things to be..
i still want him tho..
wells...
After lunch went for werk..
Boring..
Tomorrow off day..
Time fo maself..
go sauna..
Yeah2!!
eat jessie darling's cooking..
Pasta..
Yum Yum..
:P
finished werk at 5.45pm..
stupid computer had problem shutting down..
earlier on, wen i was on ma wy to da staircase to smoke at werkplace, i bump..
into a cute malay guy..
aaahhh..
he smiled at me and i smiled back..
i didnt realise dat i actually blushed..
hehe..
met Tania at werkplace..
then went to tampines starbucks..
then we went shopping to find gifts for her anniversary..
never mind..
i shall celebrate anniversary one day after such a long tym..
cant wait to go out triple date..
tania and her baby..
jessie and her darling..
me and ???..
haha..
soon..
not ready yet fo now.
still trying to heal from a broken heart...
i reached home at 8.55pm..
had an emotional breakdown fo a while..
i was thinking of ma baby when suddenly ma womb..
it was so farking painful that i cried..
ate ma medicine but it doesnt help..
then opened ma wallet to take sumting and by accident saw his pic..
and ma heart broke again...
haiz..
up till now ma womb is still painful..
but theres nothing i can do..
i guess baby's just angry with me..
Him: thanks fo not bein around when i needed u da most.
thanks fo letting me suffer all da pain and the problems alone.
thanks fo hurting me deep tat it left a deep scar..
thanks fo letting me lyk u and then disappear jz lyk dat..
thanks fo making me believe that u're da person that i want
thanks fo saying to me all those honey coated words makin me believe that u will keep ur words..
thanks fo kissing me and making me ask for more..
thanks fo making me love u and to realise that i am such a fool.
but still.. i will keep on loving him..
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Sunday, November 05, 2006
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Ma mom switched off the fan..
Woke up...
Bath..
Had breakfast..
Stayed at home all the wae till 4pm..
Left for bugis..
Meeting tania and jessie and rachel at 5.30 to revise fo maths..
Went to National Library to borrow books fo ma beloved sister..
then met jessie and ate ma supposedly lunch at Bugis food junction..
Quite expensive for a prata so i bought sambal fried rice instead..
Dis is da first tym i ate a whole bowl of rice..
ANdi so dont like to eat rice..
EEWW...
Then met tania at Macdonalds..
talked and smoked..
Didnt study...
Haha..
Then i left at 7.30pm to go fetch ma sis at her werkplace...
Reached at 8pm and suprisingly her fren send us back home by car..
Played computer..
Tried a million tyms to install da bloody creative micro thingy on ma computer but failed..
gave up and off da comp..
Watch Mtv until 2 am and decided to sleep or else i wont have enuff rest..
Got maths paper and werk tomorrow..
I miss ma baby..
I wish i could have him by ma side...
Tania: crazy piglet u.. i love u tho..
Jessie: be strong dear.. let tym decide fo u.. we are weak but we have to overcome it..
Baby: i'm sorry.. i shouldnt have given up on u... I love u more than i love anyone else.. even ur "dad"..
Dont hate me or blame me okay.. i wanted to give u a gd lyf but i failed.. Love me and forgive me okay?.. I love you...
Him: I always tout dat u r a nice guy.. Little did i expect to receive dis from u.. Thanks fo letting me fall, tying me down and leaving jz lyk dat wit all da problems and heartbreaks... U will one dae realise dat da one that u've been searchin fo has always been ryte infront of u.. I love u.
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
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Hehe..
Then played computer fo a while..
Ate breakfast..
Ate medicine..
Then went out at around 5 to meet ma sister's colleague at her werkplace..
Her fren send us to Ang Mo Kio fo some gathering plus eating stuff..
Left da house at 7plus..
Took MRT back to Bedok to take out money from Maybank..
Then took bus home..
Fried some stuff to eat with porridge..
Then watched Dvd..
Felt so tired that i fell asleep..
Man.. What a boring lyf.. Haha...
Meeting Tania and Jessie tmrw fo maths revision..
I still want ma baby..
HHmm.. :(
